Monday, January 2, 2012

Looking Back to Move Forward

Day 2~A look back at 2011

I’m going to be honest I don’t want to look back because it makes me sad. I can’t say that 2011 was exactly my greatest 365 days of life. Here’s my take on things from the rear view mirror…

I began the year unemployed, I can’t say that I really made the time to just say “It’s okay Vanessa, you fucked up but it’s not the end of the world.” In the words of Donald Trump it was the first time I’d ever heard you’re fired, thankfully those weren’t the words I heard but that was basically the jist of it. The good news, it didn’t last terribly long a new opportunity presented itself and it was one of the worst decisions I made of 2011 [whew, there I said it]. Now seems like the appropriate time to say “It’s okay Vanessa, you did things your way and sometimes no matter how much planning you do, things don’t work out the way you intended.” Case in point, once I decided I was done I started looking for a new job and was presented with what I thought was a great direction to take my budding career. After an initial interview for a different position and three more for the said new one I heard the words I had been longing for, you’re hired! Next, I was turning in my resignation and counting down the days that the misery I had come to know oh so well was ending. Day one of my new gig had finally come; I looked the part, felt amazing and was ready to dive into the world of hair. First though there was a month of training to get through and at the end of that journey came a not so pleasant kick in the face. I was fired. It was like an out body experience I didn’t see it coming and for longer than I can count replayed that moment over and over and over in my head. So now I’m going to say, “Vanessa you did your best and even though you feel like the girl on bid day who doesn’t get a bid (which I’ve experienced) it’s okay, there’s something better out there for you.”

Looking back for me means forgiveness for the mistakes and missteps that I’ve made. Life is a journey filled with ups and downs all of which can only make us stronger if we let it. This is me letting it & saying “Hi 2012, I’m Vanessa and ready to live life on my own terms…fasten your seat belt.”

XOXO

Sunday, January 1, 2012

Oh yeah that again...

I attempted this and experienced failure of epic proportions last year however the great thing about day #1 of a new year is the opportunity for success. So here goes nothing...come along for some literary genius as I take on the Blog Dare 2012.

Enjoy and don't forget to laugh!

Day 1~ My Social Media goals for 2012

Over the last few days I've actually given this a good bit of thought. First I had to deal with my feelings of feeling like a "Mom Blogger Failure" but once I forgave myself I decided that this year I instead of internalizing I would come here, place my fingers on the keyboard and write. That being said, this year I'd like to find a mom blogger mentor. Someone who can be a sensei of sorts and help me in making my blog a success in terms of readership and all the other things that come along with be a kick ass mom blogger. [Feel free to send moms my way!]

XOXO

Monday, September 26, 2011

I'm Laughing to Keep from Crying

I have these moments where I think "I want to blog about this" and then said moment passes and the same sick cycle repeats itself. The main reason I've avoided placing my hands on the home row, also known as "a-s-d-f-g-h-j-k-l" is because life is kicking my ass & I'm talking with the sentiment of a "love TKO" minus the whole love thing. I'm guilty of putting on a happy face meanwhile those who know me best see the not so happy faces, mind you there are many. Besides who wants to happen across this hilariously well written blog and be bombarded with some crazy (yet cute) woman ranting and raving about wanting to beat people up, saving for a punching bag & who defines a good time as drinking a beer and falling asleep on the couch; only to wake up and realize there's a mess I need to clean and a dishwasher that isn't going to start itself. So maybe just maybe there's a way for me to find a way to say "today I wanted to punch myself in the face" but like in a funny way.

Being unemployed comes with one pretty awesome perk, my daughter. I'm not gonna lie sometimes it doesn't feel so awesome but I'm sure at the ripe ol' age of almost two I was giving my parents the same, hmmmm...let's call it joy. I know every parent thinks the world of there child (or children) but I know for a fact (yes, I took a poll) that my daughter is the funniest, smartest and prettiest of them all. She certainly makes me want to pull my hair out when I'm exhausted, yelling her name & calling her a stinky baby and she proceeds to run around laughing hysterically or better yet she gets on her tippy toes to close the door and says "buh-bye," no I'm not making any of this up. Ultimately I have her to thank for remaining a sane and functioning person. My life is like clockwork same routine, different day and clearly falling apart to the extent I wish were allowed is not an option, besides in the midst of it all there's plenty to laugh at, for example:

My mom's birthday just past and I thought it be nice to get her some balloons. Big. Mistake. Little did I know Elle's fascination and love for them, had I realized this I would have just got her one. We were somehow able to exit Party City, get her in the car, balloons safely secured and in the house without losing one of the three balloons. When it came time to leave the house she wasn't budging without her teddy bear [PAUSE]

*I'm gonna go off on a tangent now, bare with me...before I was a mom I SWORE I would NEVER be one of "those mom's" that let there child parade around with stuffed animals, dolls, etc. I am one of "those mom's" now and if it weren't for bears I'm sure it would make car rides, shopping, bed time & boo-boo's much more painful for all involved.*

[UNPAUSE] and a balloon. So I had the pleasure of getting her and a balloon in the car and I have to admit it was smooth sailing until we got back home and she wanted to hold the balloon sans any help from mom, she's such a tough guy! Well I granted her the independence she was begging for and faster then you could blink your eye the pretty red balloon was floating off to begin a new adventure.

She's pointing at the balloon

The balloon stuck in the tree

I think she's expecting me to get the balloon instead we just waved buh-bye!

Wednesday, July 6, 2011

Mumbo Jumbo

The toughest part of forcing myself to sit here and hit the keys is where to start. There's so much to cover, hmmmm. I'll start with the most obvious (and easiest)...my EB.

Well we're at the half way mark to hitting "the terrible two's" and I'm unashamedly in the brainstorming phase because there is party in the horizon and well I set the bar pretty high last year so the only way to go is up! I'm actually looking forward to this year just a little bit more because we would have hopefully *fingers crossed* acquired some friends. In my opinion that's what makes a kids party a kids party, the kids (and the adult beverages). I think I know what direction I'm heading it's just a matter of working out the specifics. We're trucking through summer with cute dresses, fun at the pool and cool sunglasses to keep us looking and feeling cool.



I guess I'll give you the condensed version of the past few months:



I found out about an Easter egg drop and although it turned into an all day event we had a blast. I was hoping our second go'round we'd have better luck. The key I learned rather quickly was to get there early. We took a ton of pictures, got a photo with a celebrity (yes, in the south the Chick-fil-a cow counts), had a yummy lunch that took me right back to elementary school (i.e. hot dog and french fries) & eventually just a "few" hours later we were lined up on a high school football field awaiting the go ahead to run onto the field and get us some eggs. It couldn't have been more worth it.



Happy Easter!




My church had a Mother's Day tea and well this is the gang! It was worth missing a few hours of work to spend some time with the gals. I even got a very cute mug and flower pot with pictures of lil' beauty and a poem.

We had the pleasure of finally getting our Baby Loves Disco on and although it left plenty to be desired, the old testament holds true "you get what you pay for" and in our case it was a free event.





"Fun" times at the pool! She really does love the water.



In the words of Oprah, you'd call this a full circle moment in my life. We went to my high school alma mater, the original building was getting knocked down and they invited students old and new to walk the halls one last time as we all remembered it. Eleven years later and I've gone from gawky teenager to sexy single momma!

And they you have it, all caught up! Actually, there's so much more to dish on...

XOXO

Monday, May 9, 2011

I've Fallen & I'm Having a Rather Hard Time Getting Up

My inital thought was "I've fallen & I can't get up" however it's not that I can't get up it's that I truly am having a rather hard time getting up, metaphorically speaking ofcourse.

The whole point of this ("this" being my blog) is to release and share the good, the bad & everything in between in regards to this life of mine. As you've probably put together I've fallen off the grid. I'd have to say that time has really just gotten away from me. Days turn into weeks, weeks turn into months and well here we are about two months since my last post. I'd be lying if I said it didn't feel longer and now well I don't really feel that bad. The good news is there is always something going on so although we've missed some there's plenty to look forward to.

Here's to picking up where we left off

XOXO

Tuesday, March 1, 2011

Bloggy Dare-What is the oddest last-minute meal you have put together and served?



This is surprisingly is a tough one for me. Although in the past I've had poor eating habits I can't say they've been odd. The strangest it gets over here is hamburger helper and even then I use ground turkey & don't follow the cooking instructions provided, it taste better cooked separately and then combining everything. I guess in an effort to be health conscious they've got some whole grain versions out although I tried the lemon herb and it was gross, just an FYI.

XOXO